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I was having all these pills of different sizes, standing up miserable, with people tending to me.  FORGOT THE REST BECAUSE I HIT MY HEAD.  I blame Ellen DeGeneres.

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My arms were over my head, you know facing each other.

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I had the most amazing dream.  Finally, I was with these huge kinda gooey heads, like reddish blonde Tim Burtons, all lying sorta in stacks around.  I even touched one, lying on the floor.  I think for the 2nd time 2 big people squeezed in a box to hide in another room.  I was just on the floor in this room.  There was this icy person, like a cartoon of the Snow Queen but evil, kinda laughing like I wouldn't be tortured but threatening to ruin me and attack me I guess.  Like, she was gonna ruin my nose, but it wouldn't really "hurt."  Instead, She engulfed my arms in a huge force, and I was writhing like crazy and couldn't moved.  It was so like kinda I dunno stressful and a little painful or really fast and hard to defend.  I felt I was just so minisculely and so much was writhing out of this force that was attacking my arms, and I knew I would get out.  Her nose was kinda like a slope that went outward and down.  She was like blue and white.  So, no joy, but I was happy something worse wouldn't happen and that I wasn't stimulated.  So, I woke up, then, and it was similar to when I felt pain so much but not like disgusting and felt it for like years, the pleasure and happiness afterwards.  So, after this, I felt kinda like someone was touching me, maybe someone who was really mad at me, my arms, like a staticy reverberation and I never really felt very stimulated, maybe just a wave of dips.  My arms felt so like overpowered and disconnected.  It was the best feeling and exciting, like a ride you dread yet mostly enjoy.  So, it felt like that, and I finally got up.

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I remember I was at the back of a church.

I think there was one where I was living with my parents and some others and that I had to move out on my own, in an apartment complex.

The dreams were pretty long.

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I cheered for Johnny because I thought oh this is good so we feel a little and then get some action.  He seemed downtrodden.

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I was recording the part with Ellen DeGeneres and Johnny Depp.

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In my dream before, there was a class and there were several white blondes with shaved heads and I know a brunette with bangs.  It was a big class with people around the edge of a room in an L.  Ellen DeGeneres was there somewhere in the back and excited.

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So, a bunch of stuff happened.  I was watching TV.  I wanted to record it with my cell I dropped.  There were little hot dog like wolf cubs and one straggly on on the floor.  My grandma was with me.  Then, Johnny Depp was alone at a big bar table that was white and low.  I said, "Johnny!"  It was like he was being sentenced to death because I mean he didn't speak to me.  Then, we were waiting for Ellen DeGeneres to come on.  She did and made a big entrance, seemed like in the commercial I saw where she has really round eyes.  She kept acting, like harassing him, kinda excited.  I realized she was dressed like a man.  Then, she started to look like one, kinda fat with a big warbly face.  She was mad.  Then, I was like in a cafeteria.  She came out and said something.  Johnny Depp brought up that she wouldn't have any kids that were good because she did that and the ideas was tossed up.  She said something about not taking piano if you watch her.

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I don't remember all of it, but I was in an open room with some people in it and was talking to Johnny Depp a long time and it felt good.

Later, I was like at school and it was the same people.  There was a part where my mom had a pet mouse.  Something was wrong with it.  Anyway, it had a thing where it could clasp with its mouth onto a thing at the top.  Supposedly it was my punishment, and I was punished for 10 more minutes for remarking on it.  It got fat and weighted down and was like falling on me.  My mom gave me a mushy oatmeal cookie that had more seeds in the middle.

The highlight was when I talked to Johnny Depp.  I asked why no one as on the other side of the couch.

I know there were more things, I think, before, I don't remember.

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I think Ellen DeGeneres was happy I thought I was a combination of 2 things I don't like.

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I was scrambling with a friend to concoct a birthday card for a 2nd person a teacher.  I was outside in a grayish bluish silvery carlot.   I went over under a store, and an actor was there and he picked up a little girl.  I went back when it started to rain, and I said ow when my bottom of my leg hurt.  He put his hand on my back and it felt good.  Then, a 2nd person I sorta concocted coming over to me.  I was looking at a box with her that vibrated like it was music.  It felt good, she put her hand around my waist and put mine around hers and fell asleep, and then her body puffed up like a rock.  Then she picked me up, and I felt it lightly and didn't like see much.  I was thinking in this situation someone would, maybe an idea from her, put her hand under my crotch, like I was waiting for it..  She held me awhile, I did feel something, felt good.  She did when I waited and maybe tried to put my hand there or something and then I felt it, kinda lightly, probably just stimulated myself and she carried me back like under an umbrella.  I think there was another poit I was at a water fountain and I had been doing something, getting soap from people's heads.  I was washing my hands.  So, I was looking forward to giving this certain person a birthday card.  So, the 2nd person was pretty stimulating to 1st see especially.

So, the 1st actor was that small guy from Cowboys & Aliens.  The lady I made the card to was a lady on my Facebook.  The lady who picked me up and who was scary at 1st was supposed to be like Ellen DeGeneres, though it didn't feel like she was picking me up.  The actor who came by me was that comedian from The Santa Claus.  I guess I was anticipating being cuddled.  I think I had my back rubbed.  It was really interesting walking over with the lady and thinking she was scary like Ellen DeGeneres.  It kinda was a bit shocking, the vibrating box and all, like a thick wooden square music box.  It was funny, I put my arm around her and like totally went out, whoever this person was.  Kinda a misty person.  I wasn't thinking it was her, then.  It was funny I was rather big.  Supposedly, I was being carried for being tired, then.  Like she wouldn't put me down.  I was thinking a lady, whoever she was, was tired.  I guess I just didn't want her to put me down because I felt like scared or agitated.  It felt kinda like a cozy connection but I didn't feel much.  I think I was mostly agitated by my world.  I think I more wanted to cuddle, like I wasn't ready for this.

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I was in the car with my dad.  Before, I was like at school.  I think Ellen DeGeneres was upset I wasn't a certain way like before.  I got to read my profile.  There were 2 things, and one showed what I looked like.  I saw an indent on the side of my eye.  My dad showed me a book by a name like J.H., the author of Harry Potter like, with a quote from something I read.  I liked it a lot.  I read the forward and then the material.  Wasn't by her, after all.  I got a sweet English accent when reading it.  I looked at another book or 2.  I asked my dad how he found it.

I had another dream, too.  My picture looked like kinda the 1 I had up when I was 19.

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I was walking up stairs and could see my dad through a window looking serious and packed about hypnotizing that lady.  He was leaning over like he reached over in the car I thought and then I didn't see him when I was lost the 2nd time.

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I remember there was a part when it was Ellen DeGeneres, and I thought of some figure in from French New Orleans, and she for some reason could recognize it and like gave a consoling gesture.  She was standing with my mom.  I thought Ellen DeGeneres said she was as short as my mom, and like I guess I was almost as tall as she is.  Then, I realized it wasn't her and she was like 5'5".  She left, kinda triumphant.  I told my mom about "the problem I had" because she wanted to be bigger than me, and then I know my younger aunt was there and my older aunt burst in, in front of Ellen DeGeneres.  I hugged each of them and tried to connect with my older aunt.  I sized up my age, like tried to just size it up to her, now how much older she was as an adult.  My mom and Ellen DeGeneres seem kinda young.  I've had the experience that people a little older than Ellen DeGeneres are also young.  I guess it's just that I'm half Chinese-Indonesian so think any female is too young or too old to talk to me as an adult.

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In the dream before, I know I was eating and doing something else or something else.

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A lady came over to my house in the shadows, couldn't see what she really looked like, just a shadow figure, probably had short, straight blonde hair that kinda lifted up.  I heard her talk but maybe not really.  My aunts were over.  I was saying like what do you want to do, talk to them, stuff, that I'd be in school in the fall, almost thought to say summer.  My dad was there and my mom somewhere.  So, she was like wrestling on the floor with me in a way, don't remember the details.  I wanted to help my aunt and sang 2 church songs, I know.  I had her leave, somehow, and she tried to come back, but I held the door as it jiggled.  She tried to put her hand through probably to prove she was not who I wanted her to be.  I had to latch the door on the top, too.  She left.  I went to the office.  I worked on unknotting to close the windows by a computer with my mom.  My dad contacted the police.  Scarily, I saw her figure, didn't know who she was, in color, too, just looked generic but was pretty, kinda bouncy, had a distinct look but could be anyone.  Saw her face, and it seemed to hide her identity as she smiled at my dad.  She was in front of a university.  I was thinking how my dad hypnotized her and how I joined in saying that it wasn't my dad who forced her to do this but it was just that she was doing this on her own.  It was like in a way that said that like she wasn't doing it under anyone.

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We went to 2 big slides that were set up based on origami.  They were rides, coasters.  There was a big box at the top with a gym.  I found that my friend were dressing up in green with guns and chasing me as cops.  Yellow as few and fair.  I made it back and ended up robing myself and getting a rifle.  I had to like have a little tube at the bottom and like where a tennis ball would propel, but a little bullet came out that was visible.  Then, I was at like a fair.  I heard, "Just like me, they long to be close to you."  We were picking out an "outfit" or a piece of an outfit on each shelf, and there were like shiny material with patterns like in peach with ornate flower outlines in like that thing where the color, well like it, seems to change shades, forgot the word.  Like, there was skirts and pants.  I found one in like 5XL and then ones that stretched that were like Medium.  Iridescent.

Oh, so we were floating around, like Mew.

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I just dreamed I began to retell my dream.  So, there was this cartoon baby pony that was a little dark.  It was flying around a mountain after awhile, supposedly, and it had a light sibling that was tired.  Anyway, there was a noble, adult pony dragging it by its tail.  Then, it's hard to remember what happened next, but that lasted awhile.  It might have been blue or brown.  It was dark.  It was a cartoon.  Then, I dreamed I saw Tim Burton directing people standing facing each other in like a palace.  I sensed he was embarrassed, but it made sense he was a Talented artist.  I had figured out a way you could have time for both.  I realized I did acting and singing but had a base where I dedicated fun time to art growing up and people would often tell me they liked my art when I lived in Florida and in high school.  Same with piano.  They thought I should make that my life, assertedly, but many people said I could do anything.  Also, I think, before, I was with my mom and dad and some trouble happened.  My mom left a note saying Mommy & my brother and my dad and me more to the side.  It was with some plain cookies.  They had got a new pack of cookies of an assortment of plain, chocolate with nuts, and chocolate chip maybe.  I woke up and there were 2 flash cards on the floor under another flash card in the dust hidden in a corner by a trash can and another in front.  By the toilet.  That pony affected me.  Earlier, I was in a shop, and I was looking for like a sports "jacket" with a Winnie-the-Pook design because it would go.  Like, a place with modern stuff being sold in a more modern way, like outdoor sales primarily around.  I think I have the feeling someone approached me from behind, now that I think of it, like a dark, figureless person.

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It's hard to remember, but I'm conscious of it.  Ah, yes, I was in my room on the computer.  Weird things were happening.  I ordered KFC and part of my order wasn't here.  Ellen DeGeneres showed 2 things spinning on TV as a warding off after that.  I accepted and didn't feel uncomfortable but warbly not in a watery way.

Before, I was with people.  Maybe, it was like school.  Maybe, there was something being solved.  It was pretty big and kinda dangerous.  Maybe, there was an outside and an inside with my computer, like an office, my room.

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I had a long, conscious dream but don't remember it.  It reminds me of Logan's Run.