Thursday, December 6, 2012

Character

Ellen DeGeneres is a character.
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Snow White

I§ black hair better?
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Florida and California

Why do parents let their kids get fat, in Florida?

Would you say adults who move from California are nostalgic?
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Hobby

People from the north have a hobby of sexing up people from California.

When the most attractive, feeling, well-fed white blonde from California, born in September, I think (and my cousin is, the last class to make it, my grade,) moved to where I lived in Florida, the nation's oldest continuing city, in northeastern Florida under a major city, life was more a hold of, all of a sudden.
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People

I like Ellen DeGeneres's mom because I saw a picture of her when she was little.

I think some people have to pay for programming me not to succeed.
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All For

I realized this was all for Nell Burton.
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Jewish Celebs

White Jewish celebs have Eurekas!
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Pretending to Be Cool

You're gonna pay for pretending to be cool.
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People up North

People up north are racist. They are also open, in a way, and can be interested.

People down south are racy.
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Problem

My nose twisted in the middle.

You can't make everyone like everyone else in "juicy" bad ways.

What about everybody else?

So, is it just bad Europrean people who are okay?

So, what's the reason?

You're just racist to me.

True, it seems to have happened at a suspicious time. Bad things have happened because of the effects of famous people. It's always a sign of not being careful in delicate situations, in general. I will not live as a nigger, and I can blog whatever I want.
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Ow

I've been out all day, and my female thing was so messy.
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I'm in the bus.

I think I forgot my Twitter + Facebook password. Well, it's a pretty bumpy, interesting ride.
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Problem

I keep getting problems.  My life is full of problems.

Problem

People are literally abusing me emotionally a lot, all the time, everything.

Problem

I keep getting insulting messages.  I don't like these people.

Problem

I just got a really bad message, like matching ideas that are insulting.  Why don't we just go ahead and like stop throwing ideas?

Problem

Why did I grow up not being allowed to be anything, like I'm just there to provide the message that I'm not very like potpourri-ed?

Problem

So, you present me with a question that doesn't have an answer.  Like, you throw a gestalt of bad ideas.  They're ideas that are morally imeshable.

Did you ever think of fashion, how people today still like the slick look?

Problem

So, why do you take out what in your life is unbearable on me?  I can never achieve anything.

Problem

I'm getting made fun of again for wanting to feel emotions.

Problem

Whenever I move the mouse, it feels like someone else is swishing it.  Also, if I say that, then they will give me more problems!

Problem

I just got a really insulting message.  Also, I got a snotty one right before.  People are getting mad at me for being popular.  Why don't we just take something important and see if we can rub it in in code and then see if it becomes a real issue in the underbrush?

Problem

I keep getting bothered.  It's really stressful and time-consuming.

Problem

Just because you have problems doesn't mean I have to justify my life to it and have everyone justify their life to me.

Problem

I can't keep having problems.  I don't see what's going on.  I mean, like I do something, and people have to "say it's okay."  I guess they'll only get worse.  Also, people like me but not really racially so are trying to appeal to my dad and use me as the scapegoat.  I didn't say that we had to explode the earth, I was just saying it's definitely an issue or problem.  It doesn't always happen directly, but it's like maybe it'll come up or maybe we should just talk about it.  Also, I feel people said that I can't really think and they're supposed to just sorta hurt me along the way and I never really did anything.  I keep getting these suggestive messages since watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  Before, I had problems, as well, many.  I'm trying to get them better, though.  This is unfair and "could happen to you" if such a thing could possibly happen to me.  I can't believe what happened in school, the hard course and being kicked out of my major rather than being told to take less courses.

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Problem

I guess I was upset yesterday and was threatening to do some things.  Indirectly.

I'm feeling tired still and sore but glad I stayed up.  I have to be ready to go in almost 2 hours.

Leaving

I'll be gone all day.  My mom came in and woke me up and I posted more on my blog.  I was kinda continuing anyway.

I keep hearing these annoying noises today and have to shift how I'm sitting.

Feeling Blue

For some reason, I guess I got mad around my mom and retreated to my room.  I didn't really do anything too bad directly.  It kinda lasted the night.

Hygiene

For some reason, I smell dirty, though I showered last night when I was feeling dirty.

Dream

I just dreamed I began to retell my dream.  So, there was this cartoon baby pony that was a little dark.  It was flying around a mountain after awhile, supposedly, and it had a light sibling that was tired.  Anyway, there was a noble, adult pony dragging it by its tail.  Then, it's hard to remember what happened next, but that lasted awhile.  It might have been blue or brown.  It was dark.  It was a cartoon.  Then, I dreamed I saw Tim Burton directing people standing facing each other in like a palace.  I sensed he was embarrassed, but it made sense he was a Talented artist.  I had figured out a way you could have time for both.  I realized I did acting and singing but had a base where I dedicated fun time to art growing up and people would often tell me they liked my art when I lived in Florida and in high school.  Same with piano.  They thought I should make that my life, assertedly, but many people said I could do anything.  Also, I think, before, I was with my mom and dad and some trouble happened.  My mom left a note saying Mommy & my brother and my dad and me more to the side.  It was with some plain cookies.  They had got a new pack of cookies of an assortment of plain, chocolate with nuts, and chocolate chip maybe.  I woke up and there were 2 flash cards on the floor under another flash card in the dust hidden in a corner by a trash can and another in front.  By the toilet.  That pony affected me.  Earlier, I was in a shop, and I was looking for like a sports "jacket" with a Winnie-the-Pook design because it would go.  Like, a place with modern stuff being sold in a more modern way, like outdoor sales primarily around.  I think I have the feeling someone approached me from behind, now that I think of it, like a dark, figureless person.

Dream

It's hard to remember, but I'm conscious of it.  Ah, yes, I was in my room on the computer.  Weird things were happening.  I ordered KFC and part of my order wasn't here.  Ellen DeGeneres showed 2 things spinning on TV as a warding off after that.  I accepted and didn't feel uncomfortable but warbly not in a watery way.

Before, I was with people.  Maybe, it was like school.  Maybe, there was something being solved.  It was pretty big and kinda dangerous.  Maybe, there was an outside and an inside with my computer, like an office, my room.

Quiz Bowl

I was saying we needed a big binder of stuff to memorize and quit.

The teacher drove us.  I knew the stuff on My Fair Lady.  It was an interesting experience, one I would recall.  I was brought into it by a friend from San Fransisco.  The art teacher was in charge.  She was really nice.  It was fun quizzing.  I kinda wish I didn't do it and kinda didn't care.  Actually, I was only in it 1 full year.  It was a big thing.  It's not my thing at all, really.  I met kids from all girls and all boys schools in New Orleans, I think.  I was looking forward to Debate and was the Laureate Sweetheart.  I also got in Talented Theater and did pretty well.  I used to stay after school with the teacher and help or talk.  I also talked to my English teacher.

School Clubs

So, some of the clubs I was in were Drama, Laureate, Quiz Bowl, and Debate was cancelled.  I taught some kids a year older tennis, and this one friend of mine got on the team.  I played at the health club and won!  '8D

Like Britney

I was wondering why I was like Britney Spears.  So, I was born in Fort Lauderdale, not on the beach.  We lived inland.  Then, we moved to a beach, where I best liked it.  That's where I was created!  '8D  It's the best beach.  Anyway, you'd probably like the beaches around Miami best.  So, then, we moved inland again and then to another place inland.  Then, we moved to Northeastern Florida.  I guess it wasn't on the beach, but the city was.  Then, we moved to Southeastern Florida again more north on a beach, which wasn't as good as Fort Lauderdale.  Then, we moved to the nation's oldest continuing city, which happens to be a beach below the other city we lived in in Northeastern Florida.  So, I lived across the bridge from New Orleans, which I'm guessing is hotter but more misty.  I became a tomboy when we moved to the city in Southeastern Florida.  However, I did baton and liked it.  Oh, I forgot to write my cousin, so maybe I started to look like a rat.  I never wrote until I was 25.  My mom sent stuff.  I was worried about racism.  I wonder if they knew I wasn't reminded.  I remember seeing the nice stationary.  So, I also did gymnastics like Britney Spears but I wasn't on a team.  I was the top gymnast.  I guess Britney Spears also moved back to where she used to live.  Wow, she's a Disney figure.  So, I'm pretty big from eating a lot now.  I used to eat a lot and got off my diet.  I feel so laborious here in Florida.  I guess up north I don't.  I haven't really been anywhere.  I wonder if it's like Ellen DeGeneres is from New Orleans.  I'm thinking she has heritage there.  I guess meeting several people from New Orleans, my life became rather exciting.  Before, it was like Florida without the modern stuff.  I don't recall the clothes stopping being sold in Florida, but when I went back and visited the big mall I didn't see the old clothes, years later.  Like 4-5 years later.  When I moved, I ended up getting striped checkered shirts with collars, at least 3, maybe 1 from my mom.  I think I might have worn maybe T-shirts, dunno.  Maybe not.  I had some other clothes, a plain shirt.  I had some cardigans with sleeveless undershirts.  I never did get any 911 stuff.  Then, I got maybe a few things for high school.  I had a snap shirt with a floral-based design.  I don't really remember what else.  Oh yes, I got some kid shirts by the end of the year.  They had like a nice design.  I had 2 or 3 mebbe.  One had a flower screened in front, and the other was a stitched thing with crinkly sleeves.  I don't really identify with this area, but I was honored to seep in the culture with my different background.  I was already fully formed just about.  Just maybe a finishing touch at age 12 and got to ballet.  It did seem rather surreal when I 1st got there, in a new neighborhood, a 2 story house.  I lived in apartments from age 5-8.  I didn't hear people.  So, then we got uniforms.  Oh yes, I used to have a white, cream, and red turtleneck, and my mom got me stretch pants, like Cats!  I was 12.  I used to eat those good old Pizza Pockets, nothing like today, at all.  I also got into "Happy Days," "Laverne & Shirley," "The Brady Bunch," and "Gilligan's Island."  My mom even called when "Laverne & Shirley" was showing too late.  During the week, I'd listen to musicals.  Maybe, I should have gotten out of learning piano.  My Italian teacher didn't mind when I didn't have time to practice much, and somehow my talent from the coastal area of Florida carried over into college.  So, when I was older, I dunno what all I wore, but I know for college I finally got kids dresses.  I remember wearing a pear of dressy pants, too, with this white collared shirt maybe from my mom.  I had some interesting things, I think, I may not all remember.  I got more kids dresses at the hurricane and then got too fat.  I haven't worn anything too big in the past.  I just remember I was the kind of person who had stuff like maybe sorta classy brown sorts of things you'd remind with or like things that are baggy and dark with a floral pattern.  I really like the turtlenecks, though.  I just thought I was too old for juniors clothes at 12 and wore women's clothes.  I was 5'.  I made some dresses, but they weren't casual.  If I knew Ellen DeGeneres was from the New Orleans area, I may have watched her show.  I didn't post online before, but I would want to.

Barren

Of course, I'm feeling bad.  I was just upset.  Okay, I just changed my female thing, went to the bathroom, feel better, probably should shower, again.  I feel kinda like trash because I lost my female thing.  I'm probably imagining things.  It's a barren feeling.

I have the funniest story to tell you! ;D

I was at school, and a hurricane hit supposedly and we were all trapped up in the top floor of the library.  We went home and calls were being made via the directory.  So, my mom got us early.  I remember being in bed totally convinced this would be put in an encyclopedia, playing with my female thing.

Also, we walked to church every Monday.  It was pretty far, maybe 5-10 blogs.

There was also a plaza at the Cathedral.  The festival was at the huge cross, where they had the 1st mass.  I remember caroling around the city.  It was so cool when I was "2 turtle doves."  I was an alto.

The Cathedral was the lasting memory and the formulation of my childhood.  There was even an upstairs.  We practiced in a room upstairs at the front of the church.  It was pretty cozy but not so like pristine.  The high school used to have a choir led by a black man.  I almost went there.  I know the public high school had plays.  There were lots of beautiful places.  1 of them was like the top 10 in the world, by the Fountain of Youth, a neighborhood where a good friend lived who liked pigs.  I had 2 friends who liked pigs.  It seemed so hard to keep track of all our favorite animals.  I don't really remember my 1st favorite animal.  The city itself was pretty dreamy in 1995, 1996, 1997, 1998.  There was this set up in front of the wax museum of a figure raising a gun under a table.  There's also a torture chamber in there.  Ripley's was pretty cool.  I lived closest to it but for 1 house.  It was a ways away, though.  They had a torture picture, too.  I guess the most interesting part was ... well, I don't want to ruin it.  I had posted some of my misadventures.  Check out this: link.  1 quote was by Fuzzy, "If the lighthouse is so tall how to people live in it? Really tall, thin people."  ;D  Tha's a good one!  So, the square with the Cathedral is really nice.  There is a bridge and a bay and a fort.  On July 4th, these, this guy said, "Hey" or something...  We saw dolphins there.  I used to listen to music then, Classical CDs and Enya.  I was learning piano and had a keyboard and was considered really good and good at improvising and memorizing.  In 1998, I played Titanic.  The real thing.  There was this little movie theater in the mall or this movie theater in the little mall, named after a Spanish discoverer.  I didn't win the science fair, but I was there.  It was very fun.  My experiment wasn't so advanced, something I never heard of.  I don't remember well, but I know that milk spoils and cut flowers live well on lemon?  My mom was a florist at Albertson's, and she was considered really good.  She got the job when I was in 6th grade I think and took classes at the community college.  I was there for an opening ceremony.  Before, I remember her getting her citizenship, wait, after.  She was very foreign to me when I was a kid.  Before, I just felt like another race.  Maybe, I wanted to be like her, but I guess I wasn't.  It's interesting when you think about how kids today are, like their fathers, like if they're like had on purpose.  I grew up thinking I was a person.  I'm not sure what happened.  Something to do with "race."  I took tennis lessons at Marsh Creek, which was like a vast landscape and had golf carts going about.  I thought it had a landfill.  I started when I was 11.  It was unbearingly hot, but I did it.  I guess it was a bit thick.  My music teachers played tennis, and the daughter in my class did gymnastics.  I was supposed to take it with her.  I remember singing carols on the road with the stores.  Luckily, I was into old-fashioned things.  My mom wanted me to read the Swedish American Girl, but I liked the redhead from 1776.  I also read the Little House Books up to The Long Winter.  My music teachers were from Wisconsin, too.  I liked the 1st book, best.  I kept reading the back cover that started, "Depp in the woods of Wisconsin..."  I used to get jealous of up north and wanted to relocate.  I wanted to see my relatives and live in the environment.  They closed Pizza Garden and the chain that sold a pizza I liked at the end of a walkway by the Cathedral.  The Wax Museum is there, too.  Pizza Garden sold Sicilian pizza.  Also, on the street where I lived, was Village In, where I ate with my friend at night several times, until midnight, after her mom's concerts in Jacksonville, which I liked a lot since I was so adamant about singing and being in the chorus.  It was my total fixation along with my appreciation lasting from "art" stuff.  I even took some courses before piano.  I had this one nice one of a wolf where the teacher did the nose.  I guess you get better as you get older.  They snacked when they got there, too.  It was just a nice place.  The only other big thing might be in Florida Jacksonville, which was right above it.  Well, in kindergarten, it was pretty stimulating.  We watched "The Letter People" as well as in 1st grade.  In 1st grade, it was quite an experience, 1992-1993.  Well, I guess I was hoping for something else.  I got cultured.  I liked in kindergarten when we tasted the food from all the countries.  It wasn't a big deal to me.  I was in Gifted, but we didn't do anything like painful.  There was this funny part, though, we watched movies in school, and in 1st grade we would want to get to rub the teacher's back.  I guess I was also cultured at home.  Like, I got in on my dad's world of work in how he sorta showed me about it.  I used to draw cartoons from comics or something or be into Dilbert.  So, I know they have animal berts.  He had this huge office, and I had pizza from home.  I wanted so much more.  I used to slip drawings under the door to someone.  That's when I was maybe 5 but I dunno.  We used to drive to get him at work every day when we lived in Boca.  The guy at the front in charge said, "Good night." or "Good evening."

Another fun thing was going to Key West and Niagara Falls.  Up north we saw Chicken Run and were in the plaza, which was quite complex and large.  I went to Key West 3 times.  Or 4?  I was small the 1st time.  I liked the kayaking in the ocean.  I also liked the ghost tour, a lot.  I thought my life was maybe an experiment.   Diamond Dave.  He's so funny.  Like the father in My Fair Lady.  He said the floating bodies wouldn't be good for tourism.  Also, I think the ghosts fell from the building.  There's also a story about like an elevator.  There's also a part about race in the grave kinda area.  It's neat in the place like the Hard Rock Hotel or restaurant.  I think I've had other interesting experiences, ah yes, Washington, D.C.  That was nice.  I went there twice.  I had the best time up north my 1st year of high school.  We saw How the Grinch Stole Christmas and The Emperor's New Groove.  I quoted it in the car with my kid family a lot.  It was "the" thing but not necessarily the best nor all there is.

I don't know if I can tap into it.  I had a good experience by the time I reached up north.  I got the feeling of the father of "The Wild Thornberries," which I've seen glimpses of and watched some of.  I got a feel for it and liked it.  I like the popular episode of Sponge Bob Square Pants where he's at Bikini Bottom and the bus keeps going by.  I identify with the snail.

I'm still kinda shocked I was at the mall in Mississippi, and I know kids were being shown a lot of affection.  I wasn't.  Anyway, so, there was this big lady carrying a slim girl with a huge bow in her hair.  I was so surprised when I moved there they all wore ribbons, even in high school, it seemed, like the dancing and stuff.  I mean, it's cool, but I would never do it, unless I were really weird.  So, she was with a group of kids, too.  There were maybe 5 kids.  I guess I was kinda upset I never experienced that.  Maybe, I wanted to be small, but now I want to be big.  I think I wanted to be a really little kid.  Then, I decided I wanted to be an average kid.  Now, I want to be a teenager.  However, I'm like a decade too old.  It was a big fascination of mine, babies and such, and I'm still fascinated with young people.  I've been warding off affection here in Orlando.  ^99^  ^66^  I recently decided to start to feel since I'd been posting about Tim Burton so much.  Maybe because I'll grow up.  So, now, I don't feel like I'm not smart anymore, at least.  I've got something going, and it's kinda 2nd nature but a bit taxing probably.  I'm actually quite afraid to feel.  I kinda don't feel anything.  I already thought I was dead moving.  That happened up north, for some reason, from the experimentation!  '8D

Hmph!

I just get so upset.  I mean, things keep changing.  Now, I have to wait for the next thing to unfurl.  Maybe, they'll get tired.

Oh, no!

I just got so mad.  I just feel so attacked.  I just was so startled.  Why does this have to matter?  What we gonna do about it?