Problem

Why don't I see more people online?  I feel as though people are using me.  I'm getting picked on for getting attention, I think.  Kids today.  What's my future?  Will I get married and spend time with a nice boy?  Will I ever have any relationships?  Will I be in the arts and make money?  Will I ever make it in media?  Do people want to be in a relationship with me, like on a blog and then meet me and maybe talk to other people?  Do they want to not admit I'm like other people who are really white?  What happened to the old me's?  Why am I so interesting now?  Why is it about everyone I used to know and not about me?  WHY!  Do you think I get tired of you?  No, but I think it's good to have a variety of people.  I really like Ellen DeGeneres.  I'm trying to figure out who her crowd is because they don't seem to be nice to me.  Also, I think she'd have a problem with my problems.  I just got some bad messages.  I'm worried about what will happen to me.  I just am so jealous I can't relax and other attractive people can.