The Option to Live

What do you think about not giving me the option to live?  Like, supposedly, I did something mildly wrong, but then my whole life becomes jeopardized over everyone else, like "I'm not really that smart" and it doesn't matter if it's not my fault, I'm just made a big deal over in a bad way.  Then, more bad things happen, and they're not like I happen to be homeless.  What's the deal?  I know, for a long time, my dad thought I just had to keep feeling sorry and like suffer, like I shouldn't ever get away.  However, that's wrong, and I can fight back.  I mean, the question then goes to why not everyone else suffer just because I'm made to suffer unjustly I found because maybe it's okay since other people are suffering...  Well, like, if you kill maybe a poor black person in Africa, maybe it would be not as bad as killing a rich white girl.  What if the black person was already sick?