Trekking

It used to make me uncomfortable when I used to think my life was being monitored, maybe.  I also felt uncomfortable to have secrets from Tim Burton and about someone..  I guess if you know you're environment, things work.  If you don't, then you find it hard to find out what happened.  Some things aren't important.

Bi-Sex-u-al-i-ty

Too bad my mom isn't bisexual.

Complexity

Remember how complex the world was when Bush was president in the 2000s?

Parenting Kids

I guess part of having kids is the parenting.

Having Kids

Isn't it interesting, you could have a kid made just for you and then have one of your own?

I guess people want to really set up their kids.  Well, I mean, I would want the best for my kids.  I feel that my life is happy and that others died peacefully but that eternity exists.  I was worried that my kids would have kids, and their kids would have kids, and they would keep having kids.  I figured there was a lot of room, though, and I guess one day it'd end.  If you don't have kids is okay, just another loss.  I guess you'd care about your kids.

If Ellen DeGeneres had a daughter, I guess when her daughter is 15 she'd be like ... 70.  I have a friend whose parents are about that old.  Why don't you have a kid with Tim Burton now?  It's just that he has a daughter.  You'd have to have *beep* to have a kid, but you can naturally chose to have a girl.  You could get a young guy, but what about Tim Burton, he's about your age.  There are lots of nice guys out there who are born before, too.  Maybe, you are looking?  It must be stressful.

Not having kids, you can change the world, but eventually you might want a kid when you'd done changing.

Subway

I had my 2nd sub and chocolate chip cookie cold, didn't taste the sub too much.

Looks Like You've Got Me So Uncool You've Got Me So Uncool

Why do we need to feel suggestions?  Is that because you're not cool enough?

Counter-Statements

So, why would you make a counter-statement?

Weirdos

What do you think of people who submit their lives as being less than desired to rat at others?

Also, what do you think of people who attack you for things that you do that you don't have like the answer to at the moment?

I kinda go by is the person right.

Problem

I was watching my video, and it paused a certain time.  I can't get myself to feel like before.

Experimentation

When I was forced to be watched without being told by video camera in private all the time everywhere by one person, I was treated with more respect than you could imagine, when life still had more potential, in 2005.  As I did poorly in school, for concrete reasons, I lost respect.  More things happened, one big thing, and then I lost respect again.  I also lost respect with something else I remember now.

Kidding

Why does Ellen DeGeneres keep kidding like Helena Bonham Carter?

Rule the World

Does Ellen DeGeneres thinks she rules the world?

Mean in Private

It seems, in private, you can plan to be mean to me.

Being Open

Ellen DeGeneres only wants younger kids to be open.

End

So, why shouldn't I end you?

Aesthetics

If I make an aesthetic point, it gets debunked.

Disturbing You in Private

Do you feel that Ellen DeGeneres disturbs you in private?

What Others Say

Why do you care so much about what some people say?

Making Mistakes

So, Ellen DeGeneres makes mistakes because she's racist.

Welcoming the Graces of Others

So, why should Ellen DeGeneres be welcomed into the good graces of Johnny Depp?

9 nu videos of me singing

YouTube

Problem

I guess it shows your weak and racist and disrespectful to me if you have to come up with a curse word all of these years.

nu photos of me

Flickr

Working on It

When you sound like others, you are still working on it.

My Hair

My hair is brushed and combed.  It looks better.

Healing

I cleaned the cream off of my 2 pimples and put more on.

Showered

I showered earlier.

I'm using old bathroom products and have a big box and a smaller box of old bathroom supplies.  My face feels dirty, and my pimple hurts.  It feels like a wet, sour hot dog.

I also have a lot of dry grease visibly stuck in my pores, and I couldn't even get it out at a spa.  I thought I visited a dermatologist but maybe not yet...

YouTube Covers Playlist

link

Dream

Might I also add I got another perverted idea to Ellen DeGeneres, but that wasn't what I had happening.  Maybe, she was like in the bushes or something and I was following her around.  Except, it was like outside like a building I think.

Dream

I know Ellen DeGeneres was in it.

There was a part when I got Nell Burton from her mom and her dad was there.  I kept squeezing her for a long time, like a mommy.  I think she disappeared.

Problem

So, don't say it's okay if Ellen DeGeneres is actually being mean to me but not admitting it.

Problem

I got another bad message.  Now, my cousin is being rubbed into my family, but she's a very bad girl and people are always being mean to her.

Website Edit - YouTube

I added my playlist of me singing and dancing from before.

Annoying Famous People

Why are famous people all so annoying?

Weaklings

Are you really that worried and concerned?

Anti-Submission

People are submitting to Tim Burton acting like things are literal in an English way.

Problem

I keep getting perverted fantasies.

I think people are being mean to get stimulated and hurt others for living under their influence.

Bothered

I was doing something and felt bothered and thought of some bad words and got mad at people for the thoughts that formulate to me.  A word even just sorta happened above my head.

Just Got Mad

I was feeling bad and like sorta focused on for talking about my cousin.

I'm getting a lot of liberties from her.

Since the n word thing, all of a sudden she's so good.  Supposedly, her being bad was okay, now, and me being good is wrong.  She just did that for attention.

Full

Problem

Why are people bothering me about my cousin?  I can talk about other people.  That's all there is to do.  I wasn't defaming her like trying to portray her in a bad way.  It was actually something that affected me that was important.  I think it's her mom's fault and maybe the other sister's.  It could be mine, too.  I had problems with my friends, too.

Subway

Chicken Bacon Ranch on Honey Oat Foot Long & Chocolate Chip Cookies

My dad got me 2 orders, but I don't know why.  The cookies were in the bag with his sandwich.

Problems

I was worried that people hope I was stimulated by my parents, but you're not supposed to do that and it seems like a battle.  You just have to be able to live in the world.

I need to exercise.

I guess I'll lie down.

My computer won't turn off on auto.

Problems

I've had so many problems growing up.  Now, I'm fat still and kinda unhealthy.  My dad got me an extra pizza one day.  I looked at myself in the mirror naked then and saw my shoulders looked wider and I was fatter.

Bothered

Do I have to sit here and envision another torture?  What has happened to the world?  Stop people in their tracks.

Problem

Stop attacking me physically.

Problem

Why am I getting the idea my dad's family is acting like they know about the New Orleans area?

Problem

Stop ruining my life.

Problem

Stop wasting my time.

Problem

Stop rubbing in ideas to me.

Talking Back

People need to quit insulting me and be more critical of others they "formerly" held divine.  You can't just like rope my feelings and then suggest the opposite to just me.

Roping My Point

I find that when people talk to me they are indirectly mean to me and I suffer.  They just want to stimulate me by being suggestive, and I get this feeling of wanting to do something about their supposed superiority.  I don't think I ever wanted to be perverted.  I just get that it's because of unfair things in my life.

Bothered

My noisemaker started to warble and I can't focus.  My dad was supposed to get me a fan but wants to get it at a store.  It wasn't at one so he wants to go to another.  I asked a long time ago.  I just couldn't go to the store, recently.  Also, there are sometimes random noises.

What do you have to be like?

So, do you have to be like your dad or can you be like his parents?  Like, my dad had a flat face before.  He also had kinda slick yet hairy skin.  I mean, it must make a difference.  I'm just lucky my mom is the opposite.

I wonder...

I wonder if I would have gotten pimples if there was ballet where we lived in the nation's oldest city.

Well Wishes to All

I hope everyone is doing well, but I know that people supposedly don't care.  I caught onto this idea from my grandma that just because my mom is cute that everyone is attacking her for not being European to me.

Problem Growing Up

So, when I was 11 and that thing happened, I think I got fat after I heard we were moving.

Feeling Dirty

I feel dilapidated, unshowered, but still tired from the walk.  Let's see, I didn't shower today.  That means I'm in a grumpy mode.  I need to shop.  I need to lie down, too.

I just feel like fat, greasy, with brushed yet messy hair.

I'm just really mad I guess at the accumulation of problems through the years, but it's good to slow down so you're not winded.  I mean, I'm thinking of the collected fat.  I mean, I'm okay, but I feel kinda tired and dirty like greasy.  I'm gonna take some pills that are to reduce fat, natural pills, that also increase the digestion.

Taking out My Anger

I don't sit there in a daze and submission to my dad because you're older than me and he's older than you.  If I get insulted, I have to like do something.  I like to think of tackling an explosion, but I bet that makes you mad that I get away with taking out my anger.  I feel that in private I got the message from a boy that I have to turn my thoughts into curse words, and then it was encouraged by others, to give him stimulating attention and so I'd be punished all the time for what I thought.  I'm always trying to improve and I mean cursing when used for fun isn't offensive.  I am an honest person, and I didn't do anything wrong.  I don't have a malfunctioning, conscious problem.  I was taught to believe others do.

Problem

Stop insulting me every time I make a point.  You're just racist.

Every time I address a problem.

Problem

If you wanna hang out with someone, why don't you just submit to them?

I noticed Ellen DeGeneres supposedly notices weird things that don't have anything to do with one another and then in private it becomes a big deal.

Problem

I feel my environment has been plotted against me.

Problem

So, where's my money?  You keep bothering me.  Every time I post, I'm bothered.

Problem

Can you just stop impersonating my aunt or get the source of this problem once and for all and don't hurt anyone if they don't mean anything and are just looking for attention?

Problems

So, what's with the acting like the clicks in my room are okay ... like even with things that other people approve of?

I was thinking, people are making fun of me for identifying with my dad in a good way.

Stop surrounding me all of a sudden with insults.  I don't believe you, that this is what I need but that you are bad people.  It seems like all the good people have gone against me that I meet.

Problem

I was just really bothered and feel more annoyed for reacting.  I just felt so overcome and like beaten down.

I will not take this.  I will locate the cause of these problems and why I've been so tortured.  I'm more convinced it was the n word thing.  I don't want to believe my life was an experiment before college and especially not when I moved when I was 12.  My life was miserable.  Since that thing when I was 11, I pretty much lost my looks and eventually well-being.

So, I think that there is the original source, and then there is the person who takes action and then there is the person who is a victim.

My head is pretty sensitive now, too.  It's hard on the outside, and the inside is more stable.

Nitey

Celeb Watch

I just watched Johnny Depp on YouTube playing guitar.