Taking out My Anger

I don't sit there in a daze and submission to my dad because you're older than me and he's older than you.  If I get insulted, I have to like do something.  I like to think of tackling an explosion, but I bet that makes you mad that I get away with taking out my anger.  I feel that in private I got the message from a boy that I have to turn my thoughts into curse words, and then it was encouraged by others, to give him stimulating attention and so I'd be punished all the time for what I thought.  I'm always trying to improve and I mean cursing when used for fun isn't offensive.  I am an honest person, and I didn't do anything wrong.  I don't have a malfunctioning, conscious problem.  I was taught to believe others do.